He Speaks!

A couple of weeks ago I posted about passion at work and why I can't show it like others can. Well, God shared something with me a couple of days ago and I wanted to share it here.

"They are passionate about it (their work) because they don't have anything else. I am your passion. That is why your walk is so hard, because you're having to live between the two. Go and show them what your passion is. That is what you have to do."

Wow! It's a bit of a stark reality, but it's His truth. I have Him; they don't. And He is right, in that He IS my passion. Since returning to the narrow path just on four years ago I wanted to live to make Him happy. Today, well it's a different story, as I have learnt that I don't have to DO anything to make Him happy as He already is. He loves me already. I already make Him happy just by being His.

What does make Him happy though? It's living FOR Him. Sharing HIS Word with others. Telling and showing others what HE has done for me. Not the other way around.

I have learnt to live by grace. By HIS grace. His never-ending, unfailing and unconditional love for me. It does not make my life any easier, and from the Word He gave me above He has explained why. The enemy knows that He IS my real passion and he doesn't like it one little bit!

So, I will show them - all the unsaved people in my life - that God is my passion. He is the reason for my all. He is the reason I can hold my head up high despite my past. He is the reason that I have all that I have, which is just enough.

Passion. God is mine. What is yours?

What Can't I Show Passion Like That?

Why can’t I show passion like that? This is a question that I often ask myself but don’t always get an answer! Why do I ask this? Well, it’s because being a solo parent and home maker, doing the full-time work that I do, being part of the church family I am a part of, and being a blogger/writer like I am, I always wonder why I don’t have just a little more zeal for what I do.

I believe it’s because God has wanted me to concentrate on the zeal I need for myself before being fully able to bless others. It’s also because I AM a solo parent and have to juggle many things. I also have a different focus to my work colleagues, church members and blogger/writer friends. Up until this point in time my focus has been on surviving and getting through the season that I’ve just been in.

I work with mostly non-Christians. During my time off the narrow path in my twenties and thirties, I did have a passion for what I was doing at work. Don’t get me wrong, I still enjoy the work I do, but I just don’t make it the be all and end all of my life (and that’s not to say that my colleagues do either!). I feel that God has other plans for my passion and zeal.

I do really admire a couple of ladies that I work with. They both have a lot of passion for what they do and it shows. I am blessed to be able to work with them and have learnt, and continue to learn, a lot of valuable lessons from them. I long for that passion with what I am called to do. But what am I called to do?

I asked God this question the other day and He replied, “Jasmine.” He told me how I am to raise her in the type of home that brings glory to Him. Even though I don’t have a husband, I do have one in God. Even though Jasmine doesn’t have a father living at home with her, she does have God. We are to eat, breath, play, work, and love God.

I also really admire a lot of women who I am connected to in the blogger world. I wonder at times how on earth they do all they do as well as maintain a home and family.

The one thing that I’ve had to remind myself not to do in pondering passion and zeal is to compare myself with anyone else. God has me in the position I’m in for a reason. I am a solo parent, full-time worker in a secular office, friend, church member and blogger/writer for a reason. His vision of what my life is to be like is becoming clearer every day. He is showing me what He has pre-destined for me in His time, not mine.

What things are you passionate about? Where does your zeal come from? If you’re in ministry and also have a job, home and family to tend to, how do you fit everything in? Please share your thoughts in a comment. You WILL be blessing not only me but others who read my blog.