My growth over the last few months has been remarkable. I’m finding myself growing in strength and wisdom in so many areas. I can only give credit to God for this. He is shaping and moulding me into the woman He truly knows me to be.
Part of this transformation is me working on the fact that, to put it bluntly, people in my life have let me down. From partners, to work colleagues...the list goes on. It wasn’t until my wonderful friend Jo prayed over me a few weeks back did I realise just how much being let down has actually affected me.
Tonight I dealt with some of the emotions of healing from someone letting me down. It hurt, and it hurt a lot. But, once again, God brought me through the pain. It is by His love, and the loving kindness of another wonderful friend, that I can now sit here and write this.
I write of God’s goodness. Of how over the last twenty plus years of my life He has never let me out of His grasp. Of how in my life He has given me people who have never, and I mean NEVER, let me down. Of the love of a child who keeps renewing me and my confidence in humans every day. Of the grace that God provides by forgiving me of my many sins on a daily basis. And of a God who will continue to do this, and much more, until the day I meet Him in Glory.
“There are “friends” who destroy each other, but a real friend sticks closer than a brother.” Proverbs 18:24 NLT
Jesus is my only real friend. I have wonderfully "real" friends, but even in their capacity as my close friends, it is not guaranteed that they will never let me down. But Jesus never will. And when you think about what He went through for me, I don’t think he’d be able to.
He died on the cross for my abovementioned sins. He suffered horrible cruelty as the hands of humans. He was let down by His friends. He suffered the same loss as I have done so.
That’s why He won’t ever let me down. He’s been there and He’s felt it all.
God is strengthening me and changing my heart and mind to bring glory to Him. When I look back to where I was mentally, physically, emotionally and spiritually this time last year it blows me away. I was a co-dependent, insecure, muddle-headed mess. Now I am confident in my singleness, my direction and my thinking. And I owe all of this to God and what He has allowed me to endure.
Don’t ever feel that you don’t have anyone to turn to when you are let down by others. There is Someone, and He is the greatest Someone you will ever encounter in your life. He is my Jesus, my God, my Father, my Comforter, my Protector and my Saviour.