There are just so many faithful promises that God bestows upon us. At this point in time I need to have these promises written on paper for me to see and also written on my heart to feel.
He is a faithful Father full of loving kindness, gracious mercies and a never-ending and undying unconditional love for us. And that is what I need right now; to know that despite the changes that are occurring in my life, despite the ache that I feel deep down in my soul because of these changes, He is providing me with all these things in addition to His faithful promises.
Today marks the beginning of April. Can you believe that? I certainly can't! This year has passed in a blur for me so far. I hit the floor running on my return to work on the 4th of January and I feel that I have not stopped since. Suffice to say, I am run down, sick and bordering on being burnt out. I don't have much left in my reserve tank and am ever so thankful that Easter is almost upon us. Not only because of the sacrifice that Jesus made for us, and for His resurrection, but also because I get almost a whole week of 'me' time while my girl holidays with her father and his family.
As it's the 1st of April, it's time for a new 24 in 2010 scripture memory verse. And these verses may well be the most comforting verses - as in emotionally, mentally, spiritually and physically pleasing verses - I have found so far in His Word.
4 He will cover you with his feathers.
He will shelter you with his wings.
His faithful promises are your armor and protection.
5 Do not be afraid of the terrors of the night,
nor the arrow that flies in the day.
Never, ever before have I needed to feel this kind of comfort than I do now.
When I read verse 4, I imagine large white pristine feathers, like the swan feathers above, covering me completely. I imagine sitting on a rock ledge with these holy wings covering me and hiding me on the ledge as the war for my heart and soul wages on around me. I imagine feeling a warmth and sense of security like I never have before. I imagine touching the feathers and feeling the sheer strength from them, while also caressing the softness. Knowing, just knowing...even without looking...that the One being in the whole entire universe who is able to protect me from everything and anything is right above me keeping guard over my life.
Verse 5 is especially significant to me as I am scared of the dark, suffer from insomnia and have the craziest dreams. I have been scared of going to sleep for many years now as the night seems longer than the day to me, and the stillness and black covering of the night intimidates me. For many years I slept with a night light on, and even now I have to have one light on in the house throughout the night. Waking up in the pitch black of the night after a bad dream and not knowing where I am is my terror. To combat that now, in addition to the light, is that I speak with God when I wake. I talk to Him just like He is in the room, because He is. Protecting me, covering me and comforting me.
As for the arrow that flies in the day. I do often think that it's an arrow I've shot at myself that I need to steer clear of. My doubts, insecurities, uncertainty, confused mind, tired body, and more, are all the things that reek havoc on me during the day. I hope to, with God's help, overcome these things as time progresses, and especially as I journey closer with Him and learn to love and accept myself how He does.
He is a faithful Father, protector and comforter. I am thankful that I have Him as an active part in my life; not just a dormant bystander waiting for me to turn and look in His direction.
Dear Heavenly Father, thank You for patiently standing by me and waiting for me. Thank You for providing Your Heavenly wings as a means of comfort through difficult times. Thank You for loving me like no other can. In Jesus' Wonderful Name, Amen.