"Are you tired? Worn out? Burned out on religion? Come to me. Get away with me and you'll recover your life. I'll show you how to take a real rest. Walk with me and work with me—watch how I do it. Learn the unforced rhythms of grace. I won't lay anything heavy or ill-fitting on you. Keep company with me and you'll learn to live freely and lightly." - Matthew 11:28-30 (MSG)
I am tired, worn out and burned out by life. I’m feeling rather discombobulated at the moment, after having an OK run emotionally for a little while. I don’t like feeling discombobulated. It’s uncomfortable and it makes me uneasy. That’s why the verse above gave me so much comfort.
It is my medicine that my dear friend, Jo at Princess Warrior Lessons sends me when she knows I need encouraging words from our Father. And oh, how I did this afternoon. You see, I was judgemental of someone and I shouldn’t have been. I should have showed grace, but I didn’t. It sent me into a tailspin. But it was the tailspin I needed, although it left me feeling discombobulated and uneasy.
Jo also sent me the verse below as part of my medicine dosage today, and it’s reminded me that I have to endure. I have to be patient. I have to rest in the loving arms of my Heavenly Father while my healing comes.
“For everything that was written in the past was written to teach us, so that through the endurance taught in the Scriptures and the encouragement they provide we might have hope.” - Romans 15:4 (NIV, ©2010)
I have daily reminders of why I get discombobulated. A photo will remind me of a happier time. A memory will also. A promise of what will never be does too. I know these things are sent to strengthen me, but it doesn’t stop me from hurting. From feeling betrayed and let down. But, as Jo reminded me this evening, while humans will let me down, and vice versa, God will never let me down.
I am to focus on Him. Keep Him set right before me. He, after all, is the One who told me about ‘fact not feeling’. How that I am to remember the cold, hard facts of events that occurred in the past (note that...IN THE PAST) and to move passed the feelings. It’s not easy, but with Him I know that I will overcome.
He is GREAT AND GLORIOUS. He will provide a way forward for me. He will help me overcome my depression and anxiety. He will show me – in His time – what He has pre-destined for my life.
I am still tired, worn out and burned out, but God is faithful, ever-loving, and ever-present. He will see that I get the rest I need and the renewing so that I can be all who He knows me to be.