As the music plays and the strain of the vibration on the cello strings reach right inside me and increase the beats of my heart, I am overcome with emotion. From tiredness, from reflection, and from the prospect of having to clean my university study neglected house prior to a rental inspection in two days. What holds fast within me is that everything is exactly how it should be.
I started this blog in April 2008 after being encouraged by an online acquaintance that I too could write like the ladies whose blog pages I had been devouring. That I also had something to share. And so Paula’s Sharing Spot was borne.
Almost six and a half years later, I have come to a standstill. I am at a crossroad, and this post is taking me on the journey that was breathed into me by God many years ago, but always thwarted by myself because I didn’t have enough courage. Because I wasn’t brave.
My bravery is now shining through, evident by the fact that I took a redundancy payout from the employer for whom I had been employed with for 20 years. Evident also by the fact that I enrolled into university to undertake a three year Bachelor of Social Sciences, majoring in Counselling with minors in Human Behaviour and Human Studies. And evident by the fact that I now class myself as a “free range” Christian, whereby I don’t feel the need to be aligned to any particular church.
And so, while I still want to share my journey with God as His returned prodigal daughter, I also need to be true to who I am and where I am at in my life. So today brings an end to posting on Paula’s Sharing Spot, a place where I documented my life as a newly single mum, returned prodigal and insecure people pleaser. A place where my doubts and fears were aired. A place where I grew up.
What now for Paula C. Whitehouse? Well, I have prepared a new blog page. One with a title that contains that words that God spoke into my heart many years ago. Words that are now my life motto and are inscribed onto a silver bangle that I wear with pride.
…because I know there is more…
Yes, because I know there is more. Much, much more.
If you would like to join me on my new journey, please pop over to Because I Know There Is More, bookmark the page and subscribe to email updates. My post feed is empty as yet, but I am working on a post that will be out soon. I would love you to join me.
In Him Always,