And So It Has Begun...

It's hard to believe that it is the 20th of January. This year is flying by already. I spent the first week of the year at home by myself while my daughter was staying with her dad. I relaxed, watched movies, pottered around the house and slept...a lot. That all now seems like a distant memory to not only my mind but also my body, which has now reverted back to its usual stressed out and aching self.

And so it has begun...

I'm resentful that the relaxed state I was in at the end of my holiday is now a distant memory. I'm resentful that the every day grind steals joy from me so easily. I'm resentful about the fact that it's the 20th of January and I feel like I've lived a whole year in the last two weeks.

And so it has begun...

I'm thankful, however, that I have the awareness of this. I'm thankful that I have identified that I am tired, aching, anxious and stressed out and it's only the 20th of January. I'm thankful that I can now re-evaluate how I do life so that it can be lived a little easier.

And so it has begun...

Yesterday was a horrible day. After a way too late night and waking up to a hot and sticky day, I decided to bite the bullet and undertake a plan that I had been pondering for about 8 months or so. I also decided that God and I needed to talk about some important stuff.

He answered me, in His time, and revealed to me much more than I'd anticipated, and in a different way than I'd ever expected. He is good like that. He is tricky like that. He likes to keep me on my toes. He likes to force me into the different seasons of my life. (Yes Jo P...seasons!)

So after way too many rough hours of being true to myself and making a change that I had not expected I would, the memories of the first week of the year come flooding back. The focus, the vision, the goals that I had set for the year.

I'm running on 4 hours sleep today. My eyes are sore from too much crying yesterday. My body is aching from the humidity. But given all of this, my heart is light and I am at peace because God spoke and I made a change in my life, and I now plan to move forward from the stress and live!

And so it has begun...